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Sunday, December 29, 2019

My Dad's Tackle Box

Bittersweet moment: dividing up my pa's incredible tackle box, what Jim described as the most well-appointed he had ever seen, to which I replied, "should be since it was his chief passion for almost 90 years." There were many antique lures within including one stamped "France."

Somewhere in western Washington
My first memories of him fishing are set in an icy mountain stream near Colorado Springs, in the early 60s. My mother would throw the rainbow trout into a cast-iron skillet and cook them with the heads on. I gobbled up every morsel, with a piece of white bread at the ready in case he had missed any bones (he almost never did). He seldom took his daughters fishing (until Beckie came along and it was often just the two of them), but I do remember one excruciatingly long day when he took his (then) four children in a boat in the middle of Eleven Mile Lake in the Colorado mountains (there must have been an arrangement to give my mother a much-needed day to herself). When we lived in El Paso, we would camp along the Gila River in the mountains of New Mexico where he would spend his days in his waders and his children would wander and play in the water, throwing pebbles (we were told to keep the pebble-throwing far away from his fishing spot so as not to disturb the bite). Wherever we traveled in our brown Ford station wagon, he would be eyeing fishing opportunities. While he fished, my mother often took us to nearby historic sites and museums. 

Campfire, Gila National Forest, New Mexico
After retirement from the Army, we lived on the family farm/ranch in Slope County, and he hit nearby Stewart Lake and Davis Dam whenever he could get away from the chores. Trips to the Black Hills and Yellowstone National Park were a great treat. Once my father and my mother's uncle took a boat on Lake Yellowstone and the propellor fell into the depths--it is a huge lake so they had a long row back to shore.Visits to his family in Mississippi were devoted to fishing, sitting in lawn chairs visiting, and eating soul food prepared by the women, all of them great cooks. Once the men came home with a huge catfish, nearly as big as my younger brother, and they took turns "making pictures" of it with all of the cousins. 

That's me, holding the big catfish. That's our pop-up camper from that era.
You can find several past blogs I've written about him, including this one. When he was living in Dickinson, he took a trip with his pals and his boat to a remote part of Canada and had a ball. These last years he has lived in Bismarck he greatly enjoyed fishing with Jim and Jeff on the Missouri, and with my sister, Beckie and her husband, on nearby lakes. One of the last times the "husbands" took him fishing was on nearby Harmon Lake, while my sisters and I kayaked (sense a theme here?). 

Dad with his youngest son, Thomas, on a trip they took to Mississippi (the rest of us were in school)
Dad's younger brother frequently told him he should have become a professional fisherman. We are so very sad he can no longer fish. You think you have time, and then you don't.

Mississippi, 1968

Last time on the Missouri River, in Jeff's boat

Monday, December 9, 2019

Homage to our Lizzie

Lizzie's first Christmas, Dunn County
A note from Jim and Lillian on this sad day. 

Our hearts are broken today as we have had to say goodbye to our beloved Lizzie, our adorable Springer Spaniel, on this sad, dark day. We pause to write this homage to her and to give thanks for all the joy she brought to our lives.

 There are a couple of blogs at our house, so we thought we team up and share our thoughts today. Here’s Lillian.

Lillian and Lizzie, Stewart Lake Natl Wildlife Refuge, Slope County (picture by Jan Swenson)
The moment Jim walked in the door of our Dunn County home on that July day 14 ½ years ago and placed that little black and white furball in my arms, my heart melted, and we forever had a very special bond. Jim has always had a hunting dog and had decided that this time it would be a Springer Spaniel. He picked her up at a place near Pettibone, North Dakota, and carefully chose the runt of the litter, wanting a dog that would not be as prone to knocking over our little Rachel. I often said we should have named her “Pettibone” – what a perfect name for a dog, with Bone-y for short.

When we first brought her home for what was a great life

Breaking all the rules, she slept with the girls, taking turns between the two of them, and thus cemented her habit of jumping on the bed during the day as soon as we weren’t looking. We fondly called her “fat paws” and she had the most lovely soft brown eyes. Our friend, Clay, called her the “best dog ever” and he was, of course, right.

Chelsea, holding Lizzie, and Rachel
Not long after we got her, she managed to get into rat poison in the neighbor’s Quonset and very nearly died. I kept her alive by sheer willpower, holding her on my lap for hours. She was down to skin and bones when she finally turned the corner. We took her on many Bad Lands hikes, and the most memorable was not long after this near-death, a 14-mile hike on the Long X Divide trail. Distracted as I already was by encouraging my teenager to muster on, I had to carry Lizzie the last few miles.

When we would let her outside one last time at night, the little scamp would run down the trail the ½ mile to the dump where the neighbor would put his dead cows and calves. Worried about our little pal being taken by coyotes, I would walk down the trail in the dark yelling for her. Here she would come, dragging a leg bone nearly as big as her. Here at Red Oak House, she chased the rabbits and squirrels, and the occasional stupid cat that wandered in.

We could be silly together at times
A favorite memory is of Chelsea riding her horse across the prairie with her faithful little dog trailing along behind, her fuzzy ears bouncing. We used to say it looked like a Norman Rockwell painting, come to life. I took some comfort in knowing Lizzie was with Chelsea when they would head down the trail and she stuck by her side during several misadventures.

We also took her on Little Missouri canoe trips, tucking her in between us, and she could be a real pain in the ass. “Wiggle butt,” Chelsea called her for good reason. Like all dogs, she loved to ride in the car, although it wasn’t long before she would start whimpering, eager to get to our destination and run. Whenever the car would rumble over a cattle guard, Lizzie would whine.

Load up the camping gear and squeeze in Lizzie
Jim took to calling her “Lizzie Underfoot” because she was often in our path in the kitchen. We frequently stumbled over her. I finally placed her bed under the kitchen table so she would lay there and not be in the way quite as often. Our nephews learned to not reach under there for her as she would snarl and snap at them. Like many Springers, she became a bit of a biter over time. Jeff knew better than to reach into the back of the car for her.

She was so "nosy," in more ways than one. If we would go into the bathroom and not push the door closed, she'd hit it with her head and poke her nose around the corner so see what she was missing. There are hundreds of good Lizzie stories.

When we would grab the leash, she would leap into the air, true to the “springer” part of her name. Her whole body oozed unmitigated joy as she ran down the street ahead, and then ran back as if to say: “what is taking you so long!” Watching her these last years struggle to get out of her bed, nearly deaf and blind, spending most of her days sleeping, has been very difficult. She hasn’t jumped on the bed for years, she struggled to climb the stairs, and she no longer chased the squirrels and rabbits.

Favorite winter napping spot -- in the sunshine

We were very lucky to have such a special dog in our lives for such a long time, truly “the best dog ever.” There will never be another Lizzie.

Cross Ranch State Park

Here’s Jim:

There have been a few hunting dogs in the Fuglie household over the years. Lizzie was, well . . . one of them. Not the best, nor the worst. I’ve pretty much been a pointing dog guy, but as I got older, I thought it might be nice to have a dog that would retrieve birds instead of just pointing them and making me chase after them.

Problem is, I just never got Lizzie to like picking up a bird. I think she may have gotten scratched by a feisty rooster when she was little—we hunted that first fall we got her when she was just a few months old, and that can happen to a pup. So when I would get a bird, she would go find it (we almost never lost one in a dozen years of hunting) and put her paws on it and hold it down until I got there.

Except once.

One time we were out walking along the creek behind our farmstead, Lillian was walking along with us, and a hen and a rooster flushed simultaneously, side by side. They were far enough apart that I felt comfortable taking the rooster, but just as I shot they veered right and I hit the hen instead of the rooster. It went down, dead, alongside the creek.


Lillian wasn’t paying attention and didn’t see this take place, but when she heard the shot, she turned and asked “Did you get one?” Embarrassed, I had decided to just leave it lay for the coyotes, so I said: “No, I missed.”

Just then I saw Lizzie take off on a sprint toward the creek. I tried calling her back, but she knew her job, and she was on that bird in a flash. And she picked it up and delivered it to my hand in just a few seconds.


It was the only time in her life she did that. And, um, I think it was the only time in my life I accidentally shot a hen. Um.

Later in her life though she did take a liking to retrieving ducks in the slough when we got one down in the water, saving my hunting partner Jeff from having to put on his waders at the end of the hunt.

Lizzie loved to hunt. She lived for it. Every fall, as cool weather approached, she kept a sharp eye out for the day I would bring my shotgun and hunting boots up from the basement closet. When she spotted them, she’d leap into the air. Yippee! It’s finally time. On the night before a hunt, when I’d lain my boots and hunting clothes out beside the chair in the library so I wouldn’t awaken Lillian when we got up early to hunt, she’d forsake her comfortable bed and sleep on the floor of the Library to make sure I didn’t leave without her in the morning.

Uh-oh. Looks like they're going somewhere. I think I'll just wait here beside this suitcase.

I loved waking up on those mornings, getting a great chuckle when I walked out of the bedroom and saw her snuggled right up against my boots. She’d open one eye, and look up at me. “Is it time? I’m ready.”

Taking a nap between retrieves in the duck blind

Making sure he doesn't leave without me in the morning
We had many Grade A hunting days in 14 years. Jeff has always been a Springer man, so he developed a special bond with Lizzie. He, being longer of leg and leaner of waist than me, was usually the one to take off on a sprint after Lizzie when she got on a bird and was about to flush it out of range. As a result, he shot way more pheasants over Lizzie than I did.

Ice fishing with Jim and Jeff
In fact, Lizzie in her last years took to hunting in front of Jeff instead of me much of the time, a constant source of amusement to both of us. I called her a little whore. She seemed to know she was more likely to get to grab a bird over there in front of him.

We didn’t hunt this year. Last year we went a couple of times. She had gotten very slow by that time, but when she saw me grab my orange hunting vest out of the closet, or pull on my hunting boots, she’d dash for the door and sit there panting, looking back anxiously as if to say “What’s taking you so long?” She could still jump up into the dog kennel in the back of the Jeep, although sometimes she needed a bit of a boost.

When we got to the slough, she went leaping out of the kennel, and we joked that she had just gone from 13 years old to 5.

But the hunts were short—Lizzie tired very quickly, especially on warm days. In our favorite little duck and pheasant spot, out near McKenzie Slough, she would pause for a swim every time we got near the cattails. And at the end, after pausing for a photo or two, I had to lift her back into the Jeep—she was no longer able to spring up into the dog kennel like she had the previous dozen years. I sensed it would be her last year. It was.

Now we’ll stare at the dog kennel, and the dog bed, and the orange collar with the tags jingling from it, and decide if they’re ever going to get used again, or if we should just give them away. I’ve not gone very long without a dog in my life. I was raised around Brittany Spaniels, my dad’s dog of choice. I got an English Setter when I returned from the Navy in 1972 and had a few of those, and a Springer before I got Lizzie, which found a home with my stepdaughter Krista in Minneapolis after her mom died and she needed something to hang on to.

I’ve always said dogs need to earn their keep, so I’ve only had hunting dogs. But I’m not hunting much anymore—getting to be an old dog myself. So we’ll see.

So today we’ll say goodbye. The vet she’s been going to for years says he’ll have her cremated and we’ll take her ashes out to her favorite slough and toss them into the wind. She’d like that.

Our favorite poet wrote a poem about his own Springer back in 1935, which pretty much captures Lizzie. Here’s Paul Southworth Bliss’s “Just Another Old Dog.”

(from The Rye Is the Sea, 1936)

Just another old dog with sorrowful eyes,
Peering at me from the rug where he lies;
Watching me always, calm as a sphinx,
With two aging eyes, neither one of which blinks.

Knows I’m no company—not for a dog
Dreaming of meadowland, forest and bog;
Dreaming of pheasant, partridge and quail,
And curious things by the aspen-leaved trail.

Wond’ring why men stay so long in one place,
Chained to a desk—when there’s plenty of space.
Just a run out of town and the fun might begin—
I know that he reckons such sitting is sin.

A law would be passed if dogs had their way--
That men must go out in the open each day—
Out to trees, brushland or prairie remote:
Ah, that would win every honest dog’s vote!
Old fellow, stop looking so sadly at me;
If only you knew it, we agree to a “T.”

Come, we’ll just chuck it! These papers are trash—
Let’s go where clean, cool forest streams splash!
There, you old rascal with sorrowful eyes,
That far-a-way look was a crafty disguise.

Now you jump up, wiggle tail, wriggle ears,
Shedding like water a half-dozen years.
You’ve waited so long, but you knew you would win;
You scoundrel, I see that you’re hiding a grin!

So off we go, leaving no trail, and no track—
I hope they don’t miss us; let’s never come back!

May 19, 1935
Williston, N. D.

To a venerable, red-eyed springer spaniel, 11 years old, who keeps faithful and friendly watch.

She placed her paw on a paper plate when we gave her scraps, to keep it from sliding away from her. Jim said he had never seen a dog do this clever thing and it amused us to no end. 

Thursday, November 28, 2019

A Thanksgiving Meditation: Things I Love

A Thanksgiving Meditation: Things I Love

English cheese
A good Cabernet
The smell of chrysanthemums
A clean house
Chelsea's warm skin when we hug
Scones and clotted cream
Freshly ground coffee, brewed in a French press, with cream
Rachel's smile
Solitude and silence
Fresh walleye
Ethnic food
Navajo rugs and jewelry
Public television and radio
Chunky chocolate chip oatmeal cookies
The Badlands
The books of Terry Tempest Williams and Robert Macfarlane
Clean sheets, best when dried on a clothesline outdoors
The Tetons
Roast pork
Lucinda Williams
British TV & movies
Wind rustling in cottonwood leaves
Costume dramas of all kinds
Jackson Browne's music
My Grandma Lily's rolling-pin
Good books, mostly non-fiction
Garden tomatoes
Carrot cake
The color turquoise
The New Yorker magazine
The memory of Mama Crook's biscuits
Irish butter
Watching ocean waves breaking on a sandy beach
Americana music
My Mauviel copper pots
Shelling and eating peas
Museums and galleries
Mangoes and Washington peaches
Prairie Smoke
Comfortable hiking boots
The Winter Olympics
Good newspapers
Vanderbilt University
Freshly baled hay
Ice cream
Hamilton (The Musical)
Rosemary and basil
Eudora Welty
My Google Pixel phone
Van Gogh
National parks
All things Great Britain
Camping with Jim
Live music
Caldecott picture books
Fire in my woodstove
Dark chocolate
Tenting next to a rushing mountain stream

(editorial note: I started this about two months ago, but almost didn't post when I saw Terry Dullum's similar blog -- then thought "nah, I'll go ahead")

Wednesday, November 20, 2019

Momaday, Falling Stars, and Two Extraordinary Nights in November-REVISED

This is a significantly revised version of my original blog posted on 11/20/2019 with the addition of details I've located since that date as well as updates on the 11/21/2019 Unicorn showers. 

Although the annual Leonids meteor showers have come and gone, the news about a potential "rich burst" of shooting stars from the Unicorn meteor showers has me thinking back to two remarkable nights in my life during Novembers long past.

I follow the website "Earth & Sky" and here is something they have to say about the Unicorn meteors: "you might catch a rich burst of meteors from the constellation Monoceros the Unicorn. At its peak, it was said the showers 'could' produce a burst of 100 meteors in just 15 minutes." You can read more about it at "Earth & Sky" as well as this article on the CNN website including the times to watch. However, the 2019 Unicorn showers were a bust I can say, from both my observations  -- we saw two -- and this "Earth and Sky" post which says they were "elusive."

Unlike the more recent showers, on an extraordinary night in November 2001, the Leonid meteor showers were exceptional, just as predicted in the media. That night, I made plans with a friend to drive to a dark place near Richardton, ND, where we bundled up, positioned our lawn chairs for the display, scrambled into sleeping bags, and sipped on hot tea from a thermos. While the night was somewhat cloudy, the show was still spectacular, with massive explosions of green and purple near the northern horizon, so large one could imagine the sound. Many viewers documented that night and some accounts and photos are widely available including here. Interesting historical accounts of past Leonids are in this story from The Washington Post, including fascinating details of an 1833 meteor storm (more about that later).

About the time of the 2001 Leonids, I began work on a rewarding project as part of my responsibilities as library director at Dickinson State University, a collaboration with the Department of Language and Literature to bring contemporary authors to campus. The co-coordinator and my partner in this venture, Dr. David Solheim, came up with the program's name: "Heart River Writers' Circle." Solheim made the arrangements with the authors (he had been bringing authors and poets to campus for many years by then) and I handled the other details, mostly administrative and public relations, as well as the follow-up book discussions held in the Library and open to anyone who wished to attend. He and I were somewhat stunned when the president (and his wife, who was very enthusiastic about the project) told us to "think big." We stood in the hallway for a time looking at each other and then plunged ahead on a literary project that heightened attention to writers and survives to this day, long after our retirement.

Thus it was that our second visiting writer for the series was Pulitzer Prize winner author N. Scott Momaday. His reading was a big splash, the auditorium packed including with tribal college students who were bused in for the evening and breakfast with the author the next morning. But first, I had the honor of dining with Momaday at the President's house before the reading where Solheim and I were allowed to invite a few of our own guests. It was an intimate gathering and I invited the man I was dating (who became my husband, Jim) and friends Debi and Ken Rogers (Ken had graciously agreed to lead a future book discussion for "In the Bear's House").

As we gathered that night for supper, Momaday, who is Kiowa himself, told us a story in his beautiful, sonorous voice of the Kiowa people being awakened on a winter night by a massive meteor shower many centuries ago. This was the 1833 Leonids, he said. He told us the story from the Kiowas Calendar History, described here in the Calendar history of the Kiowa Indians by James Mooney, available at

D'ä´-p'é'gyä-de Sai, "Winter that the stars fell." This winter takes its name from the memorable meteoric display which occurred shortly before daylight on the morning of November 13, 1833. It was observed throughout North America, and created great excitement among the plains tribes, as well as among a large part of our own population; the event is still used as a chronologic starting point by the old people of the various tribes. It is pictorially represented on most of the Dakota calendars discussed by Mallery in his valuable work on the Picture Writing of the American Indians. Set-t'an was born in the preceding summer, and the small figure of a child over the winter bar indicates that this is his first winter or year; the stars above his head represent the meteors.

Fig. 64—Winter 1833—34—The stars fell.
The Kiowa say it occurred in the winter season, when they were camped on a small tributary of Elm fork of Red river, within the present Greer county, Oklahoma. The whole camp was asleep, when they were wakened by a sudden light; running out from the tipis, they found the night as bright as day, with myriads of meteors darting about in the sky. The parents aroused the children, saying, "Get up, get up, there is something awful (zédălbe) going on!" They had never before known such an occurrence, and regarded it as something ominous or dangerous, and sat watching it with dread and apprehension until daylight.

After he told us this story, many of us shared our memories of watching the 2001 Leonids.

Momaday is also on my mind because the PBS series "American Masters" aired the splendid documentary "Words From A Bear" this week -- a film I've been waiting to see. (We narrowly missed its screening last winter at the Sundance Film Festival when we passed through one night off!) From the film's website: "American Masters examines the enigmatic life and mind of National Medal of Arts-winner Navarro Scott Momaday, the Kiowa novelist, short-story writer, essayist and poet, in the Season 33 finale." The film is streaming now; you can read more about the film here.

For the Heart River Writers' Circle events, I prepared bookmarks to be given out cleverly promoting both the author's upcoming reading and the later book discussions. I have many of those bookmarks to this day, tucked into the books I would purchase for my personal collection. After the readings, the authors signed their books at a reception, thus it is we have many signed books here at Red Oak House.

Someone snapped a photo of Solheim and me with Momaday that night, but, sadly, I don't have that photo. I do have the vivid memories though, just as burned into my synapses as that night I watched the Leonids, or the times I watched the Halley's and Hale-Bopp comets, or the night my daughter and I slept out on a hay bale stack to watch the Perseid meteor showers.

Do pause some night in the future and take in meteor showers as well as the stupendous Momaday film, for moments to fill your life with awe.

Tuesday, November 19, 2019

Is There Any Doubt I'm a Cartographic Geek?

Is there any doubt I'm a cartographic geek? Is there any doubt I'm an Anglophile?

Great Britain counties I visited in August & 

September 2019

England (of 48 counties, I went to 33)
·         Bedfordshire
·         Berkshire
·         Buckinghamshire
·         Cambridgeshire
·         Cheshire
·         City of London
·         Cornwall
·         Cumbria
·         Devon
·         Durham
·         Glouchestershire
·         Greater London
·         Greater Manchester
·         Hampshire
·         Herefordshire
·         Herfordshire
·         Kent
·         Lancashire
·         Leicestershire
·         Merseyside
·         North Yorkshire
·         Northumberland
·         Nottinghamshire
·         Oxfordshire
·         Shropshire
·         Somerset
·         South Yorkshire
·         Surrey
·         Tyne and Wear
·         Warwickshire
·         West Midlands
·         West Yorkshire
·         Wiltshire

Scotland (of 20 counties I went to 12)
·         Scottish Borders
·         Midlothian
·         City of Edinburgh
·         West Lothian
·         Falkirk
·         North Lanarkshire
·         Stirling
·         Perth and Kinross
·         Argyll and Bute
·         West Dumbartonshire
·         Glasgow City
·         South Lanarkshire

Wales (Welsh name)
·         Clwyd (Clwyd)
·         Monmouthshire (Sir Fynwy)

In Ireland, I only visited Dublin, also the English name of the county, but in Gaelic is Contae Bhaile Átha Cliath

I've already begun a list of destinations for my return to the United Kingdom and Ireland! Meanwhile, I've got some scones to bake, testing a recipe from the BBC. And, yes, I binge-watched season 3 of "The Crown" already.

English cheese

Monday, November 4, 2019

Red Oak House Tenth Anniversary

November is our tenth anniversary at Red Oak House and the longest I've lived in one place in my lifetime. The explanation for my peripatetic life is, in part, that I was an Army brat. Looking back, I think that my heart was seeking the perfect match for my home and didn't find it until we bought Red Oak House. I know that the ten-year record does not hold for my husband because he grew up in a small southwest North Dakota town, in one place for 15 years. Yet, as an adult, he has also been fairly restless. (To be fair, I lived in Dickinson for more than thirty years, but in many different abodes.)

I used to say that I must live where I could smell sagebrush, and for much of my life I did, but now I revel in living where I see the Missouri River every day, content in the knowledge that my beloved Little Missouri River, its hauntingly beautiful tributary, flows by me each day mingled within the waters of the big river. We drink some of the cleanest water in the world and I am grateful each time I turn on a tap at Red Oak House.

Because our house was vacant at the time a decade ago, the seller allowed us to start painting before we actually closed on the sale in mid-November. By the time the movers arrived with our stuff that had been in storage in South Heart (of all places), it was a blustery day like today.

In the intervening years, we've sunk lots more sweat equity into this house, to not mention money. We transformed a huge plot of grass into perennial beds and a vegetable garden and raspberry patch. We've nurtured the existing trees, most importantly the ND Champion Red Oak, and planted a few more, including a small grove of quaking aspen and a thriving crab apple. We hauled in hundreds of rocks and several boulders and planted thousands of perennials. We built a website to boot.

We replaced most of the original windows and battled a persistently leaky roof until we broke down last spring to lay down some serious cash on a gorgeous metal roof. Summer before last we had most of the wood floors refinished. Last summer I painted the exterior, a huge job for which I am proud I did on my own. We are hopeful the big-ticket items are behind us now and we can spend more on travel.

But for now, we tuck in for a long winter, catching up on projects in our respective offices (mine is in the kitchen where I write bathed in light from the windows all around, Jim's is more cave-like). In the evenings, we relax in our living room, watching TV and reading books.

Lillian's "office"

Jim's office

May you all find the home of your heart.